In an Impulsive, Immediate Gratification Seeking Culture. . . I Will Wait

God closed a door. 

And I didn't like it. 

He'd already slammed the door in other ways in our lives. 

This felt like it was just the last straw. 

I vacillated between anger and trying to trust. 

Leaning on what I know. . . not on what I feel. 

Those are hard things. 
This world throws things into our pathway. 

At each turn; we choose. 
We can step into grace. 
Seeking wisdom in the walk. 
Trusting in a plan held by a Divine Creator. 
Or we can let this world drag us down. 

Bitterness and anger seep in. 

I started down that path. 
Justifying my behavior. 
Condoning my feelings with self gratifying words. 
"I" this and "I" that. 
The door closed. 
And I wasn't prepared. 

Proverbs 16:9
In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps.

All my planning and trusting led to another closed door. 

I am not sure where God is leading. 

But I trust the direction. 

I trust that God is establishing our steps. 

So, I will continue to wait. 

Waiting takes work. 

Seeking, trusting, waiting. 

In an impulsive and immediate gratification society 
these words slam against the culture. 

I don't want to take a step out of His will. 

 I will wait. 

I will listen for the still quiet voice. 

The voice that soothes this aching heart. 

The voice that will bring about His plan, in His timing. 

 I will wait. 

Seeking, trusting, and waiting. 

Isaiah 40:31
 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; 
they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary;
 and they shall walk, and not faint.