The dark of the day rises to meet me.
The warmth of the previous days a tease.
My son, my son, my soul cries out.
I pass the accident site.
Today.
I slip.
The images flash before me.
Images I never saw.
Images that played out while I slept.
My darling red head.
My first born son.
Oh, how I miss him.
The deep, piercing ache creeps through my veins today.
The wait for next tests for my farmer.
The wait for next tests for my farmer.
I cling to the Ancient promises.
The truth.
This road will never be easy.
Yet I want these times to glorify the One who allowed it to happen.
Even in my lowest time; when the ache seems strongest, I cling to hope.
There is always, always hope.
Not the, "I hope I get a bike for Christmas" hope.
Not the, "I hope I get a bike for Christmas" hope.
The hope of the assurance of the grace of the King of Kings.
He reaches down and comforts those who mourn.
I remind myself of truth.
Truth that Elijah is where we all long to be.
There is a purpose and a plan.
God will use all these pieces together;
to bring glory and honor to his name.
He will be exalted.
He will be praised.
I feel the icy hurt and fear begin to melt.
The deep sense of peace and assurance, once again rises.
My strength only comes from God on High.
For me, there is no other way to walk this road.
I pass the accident site a few more times this day.
Each time praying fervently for holiness to reign in that spot.
For memories of good times to come flooding through.
The college girl is coming home.
The oldest farm girl is heavy with child.
Time is marching forward.
If I don't embrace these moments; those too will be lost forever.
So I choose, once again to push through these agonizing moments.
To breathe deeply the hope in Christ.
With feet planted on the solid rock of my Savior I press on.
I will wait for the call for our new grandchild
I will wait in hope for God's directions in our lives.
Psalm 33:20
We wait in hope for the LORD;
he is our help and our shield.
And each day I will give Praise and Honor to the one who numbers our days.
Isaiah 43:19
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up;
do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.
I remind myself of truth.
Truth that Elijah is where we all long to be.
There is a purpose and a plan.
God will use all these pieces together;
to bring glory and honor to his name.
He will be exalted.
He will be praised.
I feel the icy hurt and fear begin to melt.
The deep sense of peace and assurance, once again rises.
My strength only comes from God on High.
For me, there is no other way to walk this road.
I pass the accident site a few more times this day.
Each time praying fervently for holiness to reign in that spot.
For memories of good times to come flooding through.
The college girl is coming home.
The oldest farm girl is heavy with child.
Time is marching forward.
If I don't embrace these moments; those too will be lost forever.
So I choose, once again to push through these agonizing moments.
To breathe deeply the hope in Christ.
With feet planted on the solid rock of my Savior I press on.
I will wait for the call for our new grandchild
I will wait in hope for God's directions in our lives.
Psalm 33:20
We wait in hope for the LORD;
he is our help and our shield.
And each day I will give Praise and Honor to the one who numbers our days.
Isaiah 43:19
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up;
do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.
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