Learning How To Go With The Flow

I fear complacency. 

I fear a haughty heart in the face of a holy God. 

Obedience calls. 

But to what? 

The way is so unclear. 

The future looming. 

The days unknown. 

Weariness creeps in slowly. 

A heart pressed in on all sides. 

Reaching through to the joy. 

Yet, veiled by grief. 

Where do we go from here?

What is the calling?

The immediate rushes. 

I long for relief. 

I breathe slowly. 

Time to slow the pace. 

There is no way to the other side, but through, this journey.

Psalm 23:4
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, 
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

When the searing pain threatens to consume, I lift my eyes to the heavens.

I run the promises through my mind. 

He will never leave me nor forsake me. 

He is a God who does what He said He would do. 

I step into thankfulness, because we were created to praise.
Psalm 148:5
Let them praise the name of the LORD, 
for at his command they were created

I can't know the future; and the way seems marred.
I feel like an intruder looking in.
Who is this woman?
What is her calling?
How does she keep moving?
This way is new.
A trail not yet forged.
Different from what I had expected. 
I am learning to let those expectations go.
Resting in the plan God brings forth.
Today is a new day.
I am laying it all down.
Every ache, pain, joy and sorrow.
What about you?
What about your journey?