Friday, August 30, 2013

Quieting My Heart

A friend is coming to visit today.  
The last time I saw her was Elijah's baby shower. 
She came to celebrate life. 
Somewhere I have a picture of her and another friend.
The 3 of us grew up together. 
Now miles apart. 
But today she is coming. 

She's never met Elijah.

She comes now to honor that life.  

From an early age Elijah had a strong sense of beat. He kept it steady.
 He loved music. 

Everything was an instrument. Plucking out the steady beat.

Keeping the rhythm steady when others could not. 

As he grew older we would  play together. But he would get so frustrated with me. . .I could not keep steady. . .Some times it would flow. He would set the beat and the music would fill the house. Especially "These are the Days of Elijah". I hold those memories tight. 
I gaze at his drum set in the corner of the music room. 
So silent. 
I quiet my heart. 
I close my eyes.
And remember.
I breathe deep through the searing pain.
I smile.
And a warmth spreads through me.
He is home. 
God's work is being accomplished. 
There is no other place I want to be. . .than in the center of God's will. 

Love listening to this song. . .
Many of his friends are heading off to to school this weekend. 
They will remain in my heart and in my prayers. . . always. . . 

Isaiah 40:31
But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. 
They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.


  1. I know you are fighting for joy. Can't wait til the day when the Lord comes riding on the clouds at the trumpet call. That is one of our favorite songs as well!! Enjoy your time with your dear friend.

  2. thinking of you strongly this morning.. we almost just jumped in the car and came over.. but then I saw this post and figured... maybe we shouldnt just drop in... but make a plan? yes? We One Love
    Ama & Nate could cook and deliver a dinner to Potluck share w you .. or, take you out...

    1. The door is always open and room for one more. . .always. . .

  3. Your posts are a source of comfort for all of us who grieve for loved ones and loss of the known.
    Thanks for the reminders that we must always trust and keep our eyes on Jesus.
    Love and prayers to all

  4. "There is no other place I want to be. . .than in the center of God's will. " I can't imagine the strength it takes to keep writing things like this. I'm sure you don't always feel it, yet you are willing to be in this place where God has put you. Your faith and trust in God continue to turn my eyes toward Him every day.