Thursday, August 29, 2013

Does it Really Make a Difference?

He will carry me, when my burden is too heavy.
When I can not stand. . .
He will.

I woke with JJ Hellers song in my head today.
 "When my world is shaking. . .heaven stands." 
I have grace only for the moment. 

2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you,
 for my power is made perfect in weakness." 

We purchased a van.
We couldn't have done it without the tremendous support all around us.
 It was hard. 
I couldn't even go. 
Clarissa went to support her daddy.
These are the things that are overwhelming.
The van, my flashing clock; represent change.
An unwanted. . .unasked for change.
The demand of the necessity compelling me forward. 

I picked up Cedric. . . from High School.
 Driving through the area of the parking lot where Elijah's Jetta was always parked . . . and the guys gathered. . .brought a wave of grief.
Though he wouldn't be there anyway. He had graduated. . .
But he isn't here anywhere. . .building a future. . .
His work here is finished.

And so Cedric told me about his day. And Clarissa shared her's. 
And they walked the halls where their brother walked and they were sad. 
And they remembered. 
And they pressed on. 

And we will press on. 
With all we have. 
One day at a time. Seeking God's peace. One moment at a time. 
And remembering. 


  1. It may not feel like it, but you are stepping forward everyday.. through the mire you are seeing your beautiful children! And listening to their day..

    I admire you everyday and send you every warm, loving thought that I can muster. And I pray that God's embrace will carry you through the next baby steps.

    1. Thank you Rebecca. Each day is new and different.

  2. This next year will be filled with many "firsts" and memories. They will be challenging, and some will leave you raw, but God, through His mercy and grace, will help you all press on. Your family's strength, courage and unwavering faith is part of Elijah's legacy, and a powerful testimony for the rest of us. Thank you.

  3. One day ay a time! Molls