Monday, June 30, 2014

The Wonderful Cross

It's more than I deserve. 
2 different places. 
3 different testimonies.
All affected by 1 life. 
A life that wasn't perfect. 
But pointed to the One that is. 
I listen to Senior testimonies. 
New beginning's in the horizon.
A life hurt by the loss of his friend. 
July 28, 2013 etched in his young mind for ever. 

Questions raised throughout the year. 
Hearts hurting. 
But the power of the holy spirit was working in his heart. 
And God's love broke through the barriers and the hurt 
and reminded that pilgrim along this journey of His power and His might. 
And he shared that. 
He disregarded his carefully thought out testimony and shared from the deep place in his soul. 
And this mama was blessed. 
The second testimony reminded us of our need; our dependence on God for our future. 
He too walking with the deep loss of Elijah's friendship. 
How God uses those moments to allow me to see the impact my sons life is still having. 
The day became even sweeter as Clarissa and I went to witness 
her friend enter the waters of Baptism. 
A long awaited decision. 
New life. 

Matthew 28:19
Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, 
baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit,

A decision we learned was influenced by a young man who fell asleep 
at the wheel and was suddenly called home.
 July 28, 2013 forever etched in her young mind. 
Elijah's death prompted the deep questions we all wrestle with; 
Where am I going?
Even in Elijah's death God began the redemptive work in others. 
This is a gift. 
This is unmerited Grace and Mercy. 
Neither of which I deserve. 
God chooses at will to bring about the purposes He deems. 
To see this glimpse is holy.
 I am grateful. 
To stand this side of eternity is the hardest walk I have ever had to do. 
I long with all my heart for my boy. 

My soul aches for him. 
 To see purpose and God's mighty hand at work is powerful. 
Knowing souls are being ushered into the kingdom is humbling.
There is much rejoicing in the heavens.
The day has left me exhausted, grateful, sad, encouraged. . .(Elijah hated my use of ellipses)
The cross will remain my guide. 
Surrender my work. 
I will wait upon the Lord. 
He will renew my weary soul. 
He will bring about His purposes.

Oh that wonderful cross. 
Oh that wonderful cross
bids me come and die 
and find that I may truly live

1 comment:

  1. Your dear son was a donor of a different kind--a new heart of flesh is beating today
    . (Ezekiel 36:26)