Friday, January 17, 2014

What Singing At The Top Of Your Lungs Can Do. . .My Girls Told Me So

He slept on the couch because the coughing is so bad.
Yet he never complains.
The radiation causing side effects that have no remedy. 
He is weak and so tired.
Yet not once has he slept in. 
Not once has he been able to. 
The son the same way. 
He too rising each morning; never complaining. 
I struggle. 
There were plans set in place so he could rest. 
But it hasn't worked out that way. 
When things continue to spiral out of your control it makes you hold tighter; 
grasp with all your might. 
Clench everything that you can.
As if the course of events could be changed be clinging harder.
What is it that is worth holding onto that tightly?
What can be so important?
 Fierce indepedence?
It is only when we let go, when we open our hands wide that God can do the wonderful.
That he can do the healing.
He longs to.
He is waiting for us. 

The simple song from the new movie "Frozen"; which I have yet to see; which my daughters have seen twice; which was co-directed by a friend from High School's sister; 
right from my home town; has a very interesting song.
 My daughters sing this song over and over and over. .  .adnauseam. 
 The lyrics to the song Let it Go, (might take on a different meaning after I see the movie)
have some wisdom and truth in them.

Let it go, let it go.
Can't hold it back anymore.
Let it go, let it go.
Turn away and slam the door.
I don't care what they're going to say.
Let the storm rage on.
The cold never bothered me anyway.
It's funny how some distance,
makes everything seem small.

Letting go and letting God is so hard. It shouldn't be. But it is. 
We hold on to that which we should lay before Him. 
The storms will rage. They will come. 
But we can give it all away. 

It's here, in the next stanza where they could get it right; but they don't. 

And the fears that once controlled me, can't get to me at all
It's time to see what I can do,
to test the limits and break through.
No right, no wrong, no rules for me. I'm free!

Let it go, let it go.

But they are wrong. It's not time to see what we can do. 
We do not posses the strength. We will come up empty every time. Still searching. 
Still desiring that which is only found in surrendering it all. 
It's time to Let it go; to God. 
Let him take the burden. 
Let him give the peace that passes all understanding.
And see what He will do.

Isaiah 43:19
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? 
I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.

While I don't understand why our careful plans to cover chores 
while my farmer is sick haven't worked out. 

While I don't understand why our son was taken. 
I can begin to let it go; moment by moment
I can unclench my fists and hold loosely the things of this world. 

Philippians 4:7
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, 
will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

It's time to open our hands, unclench the fists that so tightly hold the hurt and pain of today. 
Unclench the fists pained by worry and regret. 
Let God work his healing touch.

And then  sing, at the top of your lungs; My girls say it's better that way.

"Let it Go, Let it Go"
And let it all go to the one that created you. 
The troubles of this world will never be removed. 
But the peace that can be found through this journey is a gift. 


  1. I have forgotten how long these treatments are scheduled to last. I am amazed at the strength that your family gathers from the Lord and how I see God working in your lives. I pray for rest for your hubby...and peace...for all of you. ((hugs))

    I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
    where does my help come from?
    2 My help comes from the Lord,
    the Maker of heaven and earth. Psalm 121: 1-2

    1. Our help does come from the LORD. And it's the only place to keep our focus. Treatments Should end on Jan 31 and Feb 3. Then it's the waiting game. But we will wait upon the Lord. . .