Friday, January 24, 2014

Even Before The Day Dawns. . . Much Work Has Been Done

Even before the day dawns much has been done. The farmer rises at 3 even through chemo and radiation. The cows need to be brought in, milking machines set up and milking started. Most of this happens while the rest of the world slumbers. Including me. It is not until 5 that I crawl out of
bed. These cold mornings it is more of a leap. I grab coffee and the Word to begin my day. Always coffee. Always God's word. 15 years ago, when I was in the thick of working and book work for the farm; an 11 year old step daughter, 2  children and one on the way, I prayed. I asked God to help me find time to be quiet. The noise and bustle of the day were overpowering and I would fall exhausted into bed each night. I had nothing left over. Each day full of the race to daycare, teaching, chores, and household upkeep. I began to rise a little earlier each morning. Praying that the kids wouldn't decide to awake early as well. And that morning time became my sanctuary. I filled journal after journal and spent time in the word. As the years passed. I longed to read the bible from cover to cover. Our pastor suggested a plan and I latched on to this method. It was a perfect match for this easily distracted soul. And so began my yearly reading through the bible.

I have maintained the discipline for more than 15 years; 
and this year begins my 6th year through the bible.

My refuge when I wake. 

My thoughts as I live out the daily grit and grime.

It has been my light in the darkest hours of my life. 

And it will sustain me through the trials that continue to be our companion.

It also leads us to joy in the midst of all the sorrow. 

We will continue to seek wisdom as we farm.
 I will continue find the time to be quiet. To listen for God's leading. 
To embrace the peace that is mine in the journey. 
Because I am weak; this journey is trying. 

As my cousin Dawn posted on her facebook;

The journey's difficulty has no affect upon God's strength. -- 
A thought you can carry through the day from my time with God in my kitchen this morning. It's good enough for both of us.

I will continue to rise early.
(Not as early as my farmer, there can be disasters when that happens,)
I will continue to trust no matter the struggle. 
And I will seek the joy.

Psalm 30:5
For His anger endureth but a moment, and in His favor is life; 
weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.

To everyone who has lost someone they love, 
long before it was their time
You feel like the days you had were not enough
when you said goodbye
There is hope for the helpless
rest for the weary. . .


  1. I long to have the discipline that you have with your quiet time with the Lord. Have a blessed day :)

    Hugs and Hope,

  2. Ditto to above. Thank you for the inspiration Tammy. I feel like my quiet time is still just faltering, wobbly steps. Please pray that God would help me to persevere in making this time a priority. And that I would press on in His strength.


  3. In your daily discipline for 15 years, Tammy, God was building your house upon the rock. Now that the storms have come, this—this right here, 15 years of investment in your walk with Christ—is why so many are inspired and amazed at how you are finding victory in your anguish. It reminds me of people who put long years of hard work into a career and then when they make it, it appears to outsiders as an overnight sensation. Except it rarely is. No one has seen your 15 years of faithfulness done in private early mornings, but that is what has given you staying power.

    I continue to pray for each of you as you ever-so-slowly heal from Elijah's untimely death and as you hit the tape at the finish line of Gary's cancer treatments. Love and hugs.