Friday, March 14, 2014

1 Bag, 2 bag, 3 bag, 4

A bag a day. 
Go me. 
 I start out strong. 
3 full size garbage bags.

Off to Goodwill and a few second hand stores. 
Maybe I can earn a little something. 
I got this; It's easy peasy. 
Day 4.
I move to a smaller bag.

I still got this.
I clean out drawers. 
I decide a bag of trash counts. 
I still have this. 
I move to a grocery bag size. 
But I still got this. 
I am in it for the long haul.
I may have started out with gusto, but I am at my pace now. 
Even a grocery size bag is something.

But something else is happening. 

Isaiah 43:19
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? 
I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.

With each bag goes a part of me. Pieces of me that have been weighed down for years.
Things  I don't need. 
Really, have never needed. 
The freeing feeling of walking through a room that is not full of stuff. 
OK, I am not there yet. But I am gaining in that area. 
It's amazing the things we hold on to. The things we think we will need one day. 
Since Elijah left us; everything looks different. 
I see everything through a different lens. A lot of the clutter has lost it's appeal.
The things I held tightly to, are easy to let go.
As I de-clutter the house, I am gaining independence.
 My home is not controlling me. 
I am letting things go. 
Leaning into the memories.
I haven't been taken out of the wasteland; it has not been removed.
I remain in the midst of turmoil and heartache.
The new thing will happen during this painful time.
It is through the journey. . . not when it's been removed that it will "spring up".
I seek the the quiet each day.
Trying to heal this hurting heart. 
So, here's to bag 9 and 10. 
I think one should worry if I get to a small Ziploc sandwich bag. 

How is your Lenten journey going?

Are you stepping into the journey on which God has you? 
What does it look like? 

1 comment:

  1. Tammy, you are a gift and an inspiration to so many people you don't even know! I hope to meet you some day! God (continue) to bless and keep this girl...