Saturday, November 2, 2013

Now He Has Perfect Sight. . . Day #2 of Thankfulness

I climb into bed. 
I am so tired
My spirit is deflated.
The house is a mess. 
There is food on the counter.
The floors have not been mopped in 3 months. 
There really is not a counter or table top that is not covered in clutter. 
My mind is cluttered. 
 I know it. 
I can feel it. 
I have shifted my gaze.
It is easy to do;
when things get tough.
When it's hard to breathe;
we tighten our grip. 
We tense. 
And in those moments, 
I have taken my eyes off the One who 
is the only source of strength I need.

Missing Elijah is a part of who we are. 
Everything reminds us of him. 
Our family is incomplete. 
It always will be. 
Nothing will change that. 
This journey in this life has taken a new turn. 
It is unfamiliar,still.
It is pointless to resist.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight.

This is Day 2 of our Thankful Journey.
Won't you join us in counting your blessings?

I am thankful for the almost 18 years I had with Elijah.
I am thankful that I will see him again
For his blue eyes and crooked smile.
For the thousands of dollars spent on his teeth that he was only able to enjoy for a month.
For his wit and humor
For drum and piano playing - oh how I miss hearing that piano or those drums
For the way he lit up a room- you always knew he had arrived
For his desire to serve this country
For the grace given as we mourn
For a warm house because people chose to give
The faith in God Elijah displayed even when he had so many questions.
He now has all the answers.

Someone from the Walmart Vision Center called the house.
They wanted us to know that it was time for Elijah to have an exam.
It caught me off guard.
I could feel the lump in my throat.
The burning sensation as tears began to flow.
The poor man on the other end of the phone.
I told him Elijah had met Jesus in July.
He now has perfect sight.
And he does.

1 Corinthians 13:12
For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror;
 then we shall see face to face. 
Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, 
even as I am fully known.

Lord you hear me when I am calling, You catch me when I am falling. . .


  1. What beauty in tragedy that you know that he is perfect in Christ, now in Heaven. So sad for you for the constant reminders of his absence. (((hugs)))

    1. Thanks again Cheryl for your support. He is perfect in Christ. No matter how it aches here. . . That is true.