We stand in line.
I fuss, I fume.
The event already started.
And we're outside.
I question why I've come.
I wonder why they don't have a better system.
Many thoughts run through my head.
It is not until I am home.
Until it is late at night that I process this.
I missed out on so many blessings because I stepped into anxiety.
Instead of using the beautiful gift of gratitude
I jumped off the cliff into dangerous water.
I let frustration and other emotions crowd out the blessings of the evening.
This life is a journey.
We will make mistakes and shake our head at our foolishness.
This morning I am shaking off what was.
And stepping into what hasn't been.
(really I am shaking off a late night and drinking lots of coffee)
I want this walk of gratitude to change me.
I am Thankful For:
An anxiety filled night so lessons may be learned
My farmer and family taking the night off to see a concert
Learning that my farmer's last concert with Elijah was seeing Cast Crowns
the 10 year old farm girl singing the words to every song -
even as she is falling asleep in my arms
spending time with my SIL- both deeply grieving the loss of our sons
quiet mornings to process the journey
Reminders that even though I mess up- I am forgiven
that as far as the East is from the West -
so far has he removed my transgressions
a new day dawning
10,000 reasons to sing
A niece that lifts her hands to worship - I am learning much from her
I would love a do-over of last night.
Actually, there are many nights I'd like a do over.
One in particular.
While that's not possible.
Changing my heart is.
It's not easy.
Be thankful in all circumstances takes work.
So today I will attempt to fill those anxious moments with thanks.
How is your Gratitude walk going?